Sometimes

By Anna Jefferis

11-26-2007, 11-12-2008

Sometimes, life overwhelms me so very much that I cannot find the space to breathe. 

And sometimes, things happen that make me want to scream.

And sometimes, I am so overtook by emotion that it wells up in my chest and chokes me.

And sometimes, I feel that my screaming would not be heard, that I am silent.

And sometimes, it is good.

Sometimes, I want to shout from every mountain.

And sometimes, I want to shatter into pieces. 

And sometimes, I wish that I were seen, that you would talk to me.

And sometimes, I want to share my heart with you, but I'm afraid.

And sometimes, I hide behind a smile even though I am dying to love you.

Sometimes, I curse propriety.

And sometimes, I want to run with all abandon.

And sometimes, I am ashamed of who I am.

And sometimes, I cry so hard my tears spill over my heart and drip down into my stomach.

And sometimes, I dream of when perfection comes.